Kent State, 4 May 1970

The previous three years, I've posted this piece about the experiences Joyce and I had on May 4, 1970.  Here it is again.

In May 1970, Joyce and I had been married just four months. I was teaching full time at the old Aurora Middle School (102 E. Garfield Road) and was taking graduate courses at Kent State University at night. Joyce was a full-time grad student at Kent, working toward her master's in English. Although both of us were strongly opposed to the Vietnam War, we were not involved in any of the demonstrations. It was safe for me to oppose the war: After all, I had a teacher's deferment and would soon be 26--the cut-off age for the draft. I do not recall that attitude with pride--but it was how I felt at the time.

We were living in our first apartment (in a four-flat building at 323 College Court), just a couple of blocks west of the campus (see the marker in the photo), and we both routinely walked to our classes--and to the library. Son Steve was more than two years in the future.

There had been lots of protesting in the streets in recent days; police and fire sirens sang our lullabies each night.  Searchlights were our nightlights.

On Monday morning, May 4, I drove to school in Aurora (a little over twelve miles due north), knowing that Joyce had planned to be up on campus for the day for classes and then for some research in the library.

I was in our teachers' lounge when I heard the first news of the shootings: Someone came in and said he'd heard that several National Guardsmen had been shot on the campus.  (That was the first story we heard--soldiers shot, not students.)  But when the actual news came through a bit later, I was alarmed.  Four students ... shot and killed.  Others wounded.

I tried to call home, but everyone else on earth was trying to call Kent also.  Nothing but a busy signal.  And computers and cell phones lay far in the future.

I went to see my principal, Mike Lenzo, and told him I had to get home to find out if Joyce was all right.  He quickly agreed (I don't remember who took my afternoon classes), and I headed for Kent on Rte. 43.  But when I got to Streetsboro (about halfway to Kent), I saw that the Highway Patrol was blocking 43--no access there to any points south (meaning: Kent).  But I was frightened--and I'd grown up in Portage County--so I took some back roads I knew and got to our apartment without any other problems.

And Joyce was there. The relief I felt I cannot to this day express.

Joyce told me that a student had run in the library while she was there. They're killing us! he'd cried.  They're killing us! His hands were bloody.

We decided we would not stay in town.  Helicopters were hovering overhead; armed soldiers were in the streets of Kent. We had no idea what the night might bring. Mike had told me we could stay with them, so we packed a few things and headed for the Lenzos' home in Twin Lakes, a few miles north of town. We stayed there a couple of nights.

Our only frightening moment: As we were driving out of town on Depeyster (see map) we were stopped at the Main Street intersection. (Yellow star marks our position.)  To our left--what was then a rooming house (now a BW3); to our right, the parking lot of the Firestone store. In the Firestone lot was a National Guard Jeep with a heavy machine gun mounted on the back. Two soldiers.

As we sat there at the red light, a student leaned out of an upper window of the rooming house and yelled, Fuck all you murdering pigs!

We looked at the soldiers, who swiftly swung the machine gun our way.

I ran the red light.

In a few days, back in our home, we walked the streets of Kent and marveled. All the driveways to the university were blocked by armed Guardsmen. Downtown, I took a picture of a store window. It bore a large message: Happy Mother's Day!  But the reflection showed an armored military vehicle passing by. (I can't find that old photo now--will look more assiduously later.)  Mother's Day was on May 10 that year.

We had to finish our courses by snail-mail.  (No faxes in those days; no email.)

So ... we were not directly involved.  No one shot at us.  We had a very dear friend who was involved that year, though. Harry Vincent, from Garrettsville (I'd played on baseball teams with him, had been in college with him and his older brother, Jim), had to hit the ground when the bullets flew.

Both Joyce and I, though--and millions of other Americans--were wondering what was happening to the country we had grown up in.  JFK, 1963.  MLK, 1968.  RFK, 1968.  KSU, 1970. Jackson State, 1970.  It was a horrifying time of blood and loss, of dreams shattered by gunfire, while a country lost its moorings and drifted toward madness.